On my mind

Thoughts of you weigh heavy right now, my mind goes crazy thinking about you. I want you to know that I love you Grandma I miss you and I hope your ok! youre always so special to me as far back as I can remember its you I see! from laying in your bed recording ourselves to brushing my hair before church in that big mirror on the foot of your bed on chatsworth to that chocolate milk bottles i had to hide under my pillow if mom came there at night. you were always like a mom to me! I tell leo about you and me when I was young and being at your house those were some of my best memories grandma that bedroom on chatsworth before bed those are the things i remember most and now breaks my heart. I wish I was there so I could come by I should have never left there. but I think of the times you have made me laugh so hard like on maryland laying in bed I always slept with my granny ;)and you would wear those dress’s to bed and toot ur butt off so loud and stinky and you would laugh and i would to i know what a memory but you know what I love it I can remember us listening to country music and talking to you about all kinds of things including your B/F hehe but singing to country music I can even smell the smell of your bandages not that they smelled or anything just a distinct smell when I think of all the times i sat in your room on maryland with you while you were putting on or taking off your bandages. I member you making me breakfast dippy eggs, toast butter jelly and ketchup so grosse but you ate it right with me! I really dont remember much of my life outside of your home you were the one I knew I could trust with everything I told you everything even things you didnt wanna know thank you for being there for me grandma all them years when you were soooooo needed!! I sit here and the huge tears flow so hard & non stop thinking how if I was there I could just come see you! I should have came with mom I’m sorry! I love you so much Grandma and I just wanted to tell you in some way or another! Even if you dont see this I love you so much!!!!!!!!

Love you
Love Me Always